Archive | November 2012

At My Limit Of Patience

Hey Readers! Today has been a very trying day for me. Remember I was supposed to be out of here Monday? Well, that wasn’t the case; I’m still in the hospital. The Doctor that was supposed to figure out if I could go home on oral pills or I.V. antibiotics, still didn’t know which one I needed. The lab was still testing my blood cultures, so he couldn’t do anything. I accepted that, but today I was sure he would have his answer. My Primary Doctor came in this morning, and he’s tired of this cat and mouse game too. He said he was going to call the other Doctor, and tell him he needs to figure out what to send me home on, and do it. But, of course, I haven’t heard anything from him, I don’t even know if he’s coming today. I’m just ready to go. On top of all of this, I’ve been feeling terrible all day. I’ve had a headache literally, all day long, and I’ve been feeling nauseous too. I want to get out of here before something else happens, and with the way things have been going, I wouldn’t be surprised if it did. If they don’t discharge me by tomorrow, I’m going to sign myself out. There’s only so much patience a person has, and I’ve reached my limit. I really don’t want to miss Thanksgiving once again, so if that means signing myself out, that’s what I’ll do. I haven’t even been able to eat, just looking at the hospital food makes my stomach churn. Thank goodness, I have some other stuff besides that here to eat. Tomorrow I’m out of here, whether the Doctor has the results, or whether I sign out myself, I’m out of here! I want to go back to being the girl in the picture, not the girl laying up in the hospital…it’ll happen, I’m not going through all of this for nothing. I’ll let you all know what happens. Later, Readers!

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Quote Of The Day

Hey Readers! This short but captivating quote really stood out to me, because it’s something I needed to be reminded of while going through my trials. I hope it inspires you all, like it has with me. Enjoy!

“Never forget the three powerful resources you always have available to you: love, prayer, and forgiveness.” – H. Jackson Brown, Jr

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Home For Thanksgiving?

Hey Readers! A lot has happened in the last two days since I wrote the last blog. Remember in my last blog I was debating on whether or not to go through with the procedure to have fluid sucked out of the abscess in my right hip? Well, I didn’t have to make a decision, my doctor made it for me. He had them do a C-SCAN on me which is different than a MRI. The problem however, was that because I have Sickle Cell, they couldn’t give me the contrast which would have allowed them to see exactly how much fluid is in the abscess. So, because of this, the doctor decided against having the procedure done. Since the abscess isn’t hurting me as badly as it was, he’s just going to continue with the antibiotics. Now, because he wants to do that, some other problems have arisen. He wanted to have a Pick-Line put in my arm because it’ll last longer than the central line (needle in my neck) I have now, and I could go home with it. Well, it turns out that since I’ve had a port before I’m no longer a candidate for the Pick-Line; because of placement and some other crap. They said I can have a Tunnel-Line put in though, but…..I’ll have to wait until MONDAY…MONDAY! When my nurse told me all of this (just this morning) I wasn’t even shocked anymore. Who knew one hospital visit could have this many things go wrong and happen?! So, come MONDAY, ugh, they will put in the Tunnel-Line, which is better than a Pick-Line it’s almost like the port I had so I can go home with it and it’ll last longer than the Pick-Line. The reason it’s important that I go home with one is because the doctor is going to send me home with I.V. antibiotics; since he decided not to do the procedure I’m going to have to be on antibiotics for weeks. The I.V. antibiotics will work faster than the pill form. I just want to go home, I don’t care what they do at this point, I just want them to do it so I can be out of here! Last year I missed Thanksgiving because I was in the hospital sick, I don’t want to miss it again. I already had to spend my birthday here, so I’ll be very disappointed if I miss it this year too. As always, I’ll keep you all up to date on what’s going on here, when I know something, you’ll know. Later Readers!

What’s Your Opinion??

Hey Readers! Bad news: The abscess hasn’t changed at all, it’s the same as when they did the first MRI. So, that means either the antibiotics aren’t working, or it’s going to take a lot longer before it takes affect. The doctor ordered them to perform the procedure to get the fluid out. My Primary Doctor came by this morning and said he didn’t think the procedure needed to be done, but that he understood why the other Doctor wants to do it. My Hematologist also said the same thing. My Primary Doctor said it was ultimately up to me whether I have the procedure done or not. I have no idea what to do…go through with the procedure and risk it not working, then I’ll have gone through the pain for nothing, or don’t do it and my hip will stay hurting until the antibiotics take affect…I don’t know what to do. To do the procedure, or not to do the procedure, now THAT is the question! HELP lol I have no idea what to do. Ugh…later Readers!

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Quote Of The Day

So, as you all know by now, I usually do only one “quote of the day” BUT I found two really good ones that I can’t decide between. So, enjoy!

“When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, ‘I used everything you gave me’. – Erma Bombeck

“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life; define yourself.” – Harvey Fierstein

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Finally Getting The Other MRI Done Today!

Well, today I’m finally going to have the other MRI done on my hip to see if the abscess has gone down any or not. The doctor said once we get this done we’ll go from there, it all depends on the results which step we’ll take from there. I’m praying it shows that it’s smaller, that’ll mean that the antibiotics have been working, but more importantly, it’ll mean I’ll be able to go home! I can take the antibiotic pills from home if they’re actually working. If the abscess hasn’t gone down…well, that’s a different story; if it hasn’t they’ll have to do the procedure where they stick a needle in the right side of my hip where the abscess is, and try to suck the fluid out. Hopefully it won’t come to that. I don’t know how many more different procedures I can take. Keep your fingers crossed Readers! And of course, I’ll keep you all up to date on what happens. Later! Oh and the picture is of the outside of the MRI room.

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