Archive | January 2013

Am I A Burden??

Hey Readers! I know, I know, I’ve been MIA for awhile now. I’ve missed you guys so much though, trust me, I wanted to write blogs and keep you all up to date on everything thats been going on with me, but I’ve been too sick lately to even think about writing a blog. I really want to update you all on what’s been going on since my last blog; and I will, but right now there’s something else that’s really been weighing heavily on my heart that I want to write about, and get feedback from you guys on. Well, as you all know by now, I have Sickle Cell Disease; I’ll have this disease until the day I die. The thing that’s been really bothering me recently is the fact that my parents play a HUGE role in my life when it comes to dealing with the Sickle Cell. I’ve never thought about it before – maybe it’s because I’m getting older – but I don’t want to become a burden for my parents. I’m 25 years old, they’ve done their job with raising me into the young lady I am today. They should be relaxing, enjoying their life together; not taking care of me every time I get sick. I know they would never admit it to me, but I’m sure they’re tired of dealing with my sickness. When I’m sick, they do everything for me…everything. They’re the ones that stay up at night with me, get me whatever I need, take me to the hospital, wait in the ER with me, come see me almost everyday when I’m in the hospital…..the list goes on and on. This is a huge burden for anybody to bare. My brother is on out of the house, has his own family, living his life. I’m sure my parents thought the same would happen for me, but it hasn’t yet. It’s really difficult even thinking about moving out on my own, when I’m always so sick. But I feel terrible for making my parents deal with my problems. I feel like at my age and my parents age, the roles should be slowly but surely changing. I should be taking care of and doing more for them. And what happens when they get up in age?!…they definitely shouldn’t have to be taking care of me then, I should be taking care of them. I just hate feeling like I’m a burden on them. I know they love me, and would do anything for me, but I don’t want my problems to always be their problems…..okay, just had to get that off my chest; later readers. I’ll be writing another blog soon, telling whats been going on since my last blog before this one. Later! Oh yeah, those are my wonderful parents in the picture!