Hey Reader’s! It’s currently 3 in the morning, and I’m just laying in my bed right now (after having to walk to the bathroom and back), thinking about how crazy it is that my legs can be experiencing the level of pain they are right now, and look completely fine. Like, how is this much pain not visible for all to see?! Yeah, there may be some swelling, but for the times when I don’t swell up (like now), it just blows my mind. I feel like this amount of pain should be physically seen by all. I guess in a way it is, because it’s a lot harder for me to walk, that’s IF I’m able to walk, at all. I’m laying here looking at my legs, and they look as fine as can be…LIES. Anyway, this may just be the pain and pain meds talking. I hope everyone else is having a pain free morning. Later!
When will it stop? When will people realize we are all created equal, and should treat each other as such? I’m tired. I’m tired of constantly seeing black people killed for no reason other than the color of their skin! I have just come to the conclusion that it will never change. Black people have been fighting for equal rights for too long, and we’re still having to deal with the same racist people/government. Jacob Blake was shot IN THE BACK seven times by the police! While protests were going on for this senseless shooting, a 17 year old white male, Kyle Rittenhouse, was able to walk around freely with a AR-15 and shot 3 people, killing 2 of them. Racism is just so blatant now, it’s astonishing. There’s video of officers telling this male: “we appreciate you being here”, while he’s just casually walking around with this semi-automatic rifle. He was even handed a bottle of water from one of the officers in an armed vehicle. Once he shot these 3 people, he casually walked up to a group of police officers and told them that he shot someone. Did they arrest him then? No. They just let him walk on by, completely unharmed. Now, why is it that this white male is still alive after killing people, but Jacob Blake is paralyzed now because he turned his back on the police while trying to get away? So, that’s how it works now? Everyone that tries to flee from the police now don’t get tasered, tackled to the ground, chased, or any other number of tactics to arrest them? Or is this really just because of the color of his skin? Some people are so scared of black people because they feel like we are such a huge threat to them, that they feel the only way to go about things is to kill us. I really try to not let these racist things get to me, and change my viewpoint on things, but it’s getting harder to do. The world is becoming scarier by the day. There’s so many other things to be focused on besides the color of someone’s skin. I will never understand that level of hatred, and I don’t want to. I don’t know what the solution is, or if there ever will be one, but from the looks of it, we’re a long way away from that. I shouldn’t have to feel unsafe whenever I leave my house, because I don’t know if someone will try to harm me because of my skin. I’m tired of it. So sick of the hate.
Hey Reader’s! It’s sad that in 2020, this concept is still not accepted by all. I feel like every time humanity takes a step forward, something happens that pushes us right back. We can’t give up faith that changes will come, though!
Hey Reader’s. So, I’ve been having chest pains on and off for over two weeks now. In my previous blog, I wrote about the difficulties of living with Sickle Cell, during a pandemic. Well, one thing I forgot to mention is the fact that I have also been having chest pains, and there is basically nothing I can do about it. Sickle Cell chest pains are already difficult to deal with, I’m sure my fellow Warrior’s can attest to that; pain medication for some reason doesn’t touch chest pain, at all. So, to be dealing with this during a pandemic, is very hard to do. Thankfully it hasn’t gotten as bad as I KNOW it can get (which is crying my eyes out, bad). I have been having slight trouble taking deep breaths, and when I start moving around too much, it hurts worse. I’ve had pneumonia several times, so I don’t think that’s what it is, but if I keep having trouble taking deep breaths, I’m worried that’s what it can turn into. I know that my blood is low, so maybe that has something to do with the pain. I may have to just bite the bullet, and see if the Sickle Cell Day Clinic is even open right now for patients, and go get treatment if it is. I just don’t want to back myself into a corner to where I end up in a really bad crisis, and have no other choice but to go to the hospital. I will definitely keep you guys updated with this, so until next time!
Usually when I start my blogs I’m very upbeat. That has sadly been a lot harder to pull off, lately. As everyone should know by now: a black man by the name of George Floyd, was murdered by the police, and a bystander caught it all on video. People, ESPECIALLY, black people, have had enough. I’m so thankful for all of the protests, and petitions, and people just standing together for equality…but it shouldn’t have had to take someone dying (once again) to get justice and make changes. I just can’t wrap my head around the fact that some people could be so racist. What puts that much hate and fear in a person’s heart? And the protests seem to just be bringing out even more racists from their hiding places. It’s really scary to think that there are people out there who hate me just because of the color of my skin. Because of some melanin?! Really?!…so sad. I am just so glad that through this tragedy, there has been some changes made. The most important being that the police officers have been charged. Let’s just pray they actually get sentenced though. Also, there has been a lot of defunding in police agencies. When we the people start putting our foot down, and demanding change, it’s amazing what we can accomplish! I really wish that I could have protested with my people, but my immune system is already weak from me having Sickle Cell. I would have literally been risking my life with the Covid19 virus still very much being a thing. Instead, I did my part by signing all the petitions I could, and sharing them all on my social medias; and also by donating and sharing different sites for that as well. Every signature and dollar helps. When all of the protests started happening, the videos were really heartbreaking. Not the videos of the rioting/looting, but all the videos of the police STILL displaying police brutality. During EVERY protest, there will always be those few bad seeds that will try to start a riot, and loot! So, I’m not even going to give that too much attention, like the media and Trump are trying to do, to take the focus off the real issue. But to see so many videos of police inflicting violence on innocent protesters…wow. No words. I really just hope people in power start putting actions behind their words for change. We need it. Don’t let George Floyd’s death be in vain. If you would like to start making a change, go to: http://www.change.org to sign petitions and make donations. Thank you!